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Kaycee Nichole, the friend who wasn't

It began early in 1999.  I had just become a "Host" on CollegeClub.com, a college community site, and one of the duties given us was to promote use of the chat system by hosting special chat events.  I chose to host a chat for the advice club I had created, called LoveLine.  My first few chats were a little underwhelming, not even hitting the double-digits in total visitors.  But eventually my little chats started to build a sizeable following.  One of the repeat visitors was a girl who went by the name Kutebabe.  She said her name was Kaycee, and often shortened it to the simple two-letter acronym, KC.  I had seen her on the site occasionally before, and knew she was friends with a few of the more active people, including some of my fellow Hosts.  I got to know her over the next few weeks, telling her about my life, listening to hers, and occasionally offering advice on different issues she was dealing with.  She confided some things in me, and showed me her vulnerable side.  She became my friend.

My hosted chats increased in popularity, and my club began to grow.  I grew to realise that people came to these chats not just to hear me preach, but to get the advice of all of those who attended.  I loved that thought.  I wanted everyone to benefit from the varied perspectives offered in the Club.  KC helped me to emphasize that, and she became an active member of the club in addition to the chats, where her assistance was invaluable.  With the encouragement of all of the Hosts, KC chose to join our ranks.  Together, we hosted the Love and Relationships Campus (now called Channel) and we had a great time doing it.  We became close friends, shared personal stories.  KC was a partner to me in my quest to help anyone and everyone who sought help in matters of the heart.

Then came the horrible day when I was told KC had been diagnosed with cancer.  I was heartbroken.  This wonderful, energetic girl who had already suffered the loss of friends, problems with high school teachers, and so much more, was now given only three months to live.  Life continued on despite this revelation and eventually with real-life obligations, I could no longer fulfil my duties as a Campus Host for CC.  I tried hard to keep up with my LoveLine club, but eventually that too had to be abandoned.  I left it in KC's capable hands, and the club flourished.  By that time it had gone from 300 members strong to 3000, thanks to hosted chats and the invaluable assistance KC provided.  It was (and still is) the biggest advice club on CollegeClub.

Finally, I was able to resume my full duties in LoveLine, but by this time, KC had worsened and was in the hospital.  I was horribly saddened by this news.  I was certain she could pull through, and once again prove the doctors wrong.  Because she was in the hospital, my contact with her became limited.

Time passed, and eventually I created www.LoveRocksCafe.com and wanted to show the fruit of my efforts to her.  I wanted her to see the furthering of that goal I had established so long before.  I sent her an email on Thursday, May 17th.  I got a response that same day, but forgot to check my email for several days.  It was days before I finally read it.  KC's mom had emailed me telling me that KC passed away on May 14th 2001.   I was crushed.  I decided that I would dedicate my site to her memory so that I could honor this noble soul that I had gotten to know so well over the years.

I read old emails from her.  I visited her site.  I checked her links.  I wanted to find something that would show the world what KC had been to me, what a great friend, what a beautiful person.  Instead I found news that shocked me to the core.  KC did not die on that fateful Monday.  She had never even been born.  KC was a hoax.  One of the greatest friends I had ever known was a lie told to me by someone I never even knew.

I miss you, KC, though you were no more than an ideal in the misguided mind of people I never met.  The world is lessened by this horrible tragedy... and travesty.

Written By GoldenPanther

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cramos

Subject : weird August 09th 11:59am

That is so weird!!

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Damien8787

Subject : sux November 24th 3:35am

Reminds me of the time i traded my laptop for 2 sets of speakers out of a white van.... ya. .

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GoldenPanther

(Admin)
Subject : KC's still gone September 18th 11:55pm

It's sad to think back sometimes on the friendship I had with her, and to know that despite everything I shared with her, everything I thought she'd shared with me, I was lied to.  

My greatest regret in this whole thing?  That I still dont know the whole truth behind KC.

I still miss you, amazing one.

I'm the aged panther of the darkest reaches of your inner psyche.  Or something.

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WhiteTiggress

Subject : Re::o( September 16th 8:19pm

I still cry every now and then about KC.  She died twice in my heart and I will always remember her.



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On June 07th 6:50pm EST, WhiteTiggress wrote:
 I started crying soooo hard when i read she was dead in the
 middle of the library with tons of
people around!!!! and thn i find out she isn't real!!!!
I totally can not believe that!!! I grew to love someone
that never really had a face all the hats and pic. How could
one person make a fool out of so many people!!! We all fell
in love with her just to get our hearts broken. I don't think i will ever recover from the whole this left in my heart :`(


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DarkRowan

Subject : This is weird to me.... June 11th 5:25pm

[This post was edited by: DarkRowan on July 04th 5:44am]


OK... I never was in contact with KC at all... the first time I heard of her was in GP's post about her [supposed] death.

Now... I've see gullible. I dare not call any of you that, for the more I look into what has been found, the more my mind twists to find the mindset of Kelli and Debbie, the masterminds? of this whole thing.

What twists it even more is how quickly tites turned. Its like watching wrestling, where the good one becomes bad and then everyone boos him/her off stage.

Given:
http://chatting.about.com/library/weekly/aa052101a.htm
http://chatting.about.com/library/weekly/aa052301a.htm

Note here: there is a 2 day difference between these articles. Yet, in the former, you find the persecution (almost) of those look in. We find in the second that the fruits of such labor ended up with a horrifying realization.

I'd say more, but I'm just now getting into this subject, so bear with me


"I shall not be engulfed by the darkness nor blinded by the light. Dead center I shall be. Perfectly grounded in the part of me called self."

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GoldenPanther

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Subject : Kaycee June 07th 8:24pm

[This post was edited by: GoldenPanther on June 07th 8:42pm]



I cried too, twice really.  More than that, perhaps, if you count the welling of tears in my eyes each time I told someone of the death of my friend.

Kaycee betrayed our trust.  She lied, she pretended to be something she wasnt... she pretended she was more than a manifestation of Debbie's personality.  I say Debbie's personality because that's the one I feel that was the lie.  Kelli created a persona, she was a young child playing on a college site, it's only natural for her to have made herself up to be someone older, if only to gain respect.  I don't know how things came to this point, and perhaps I never will.  but I do know that I will not let this betrayal stop me from trusting again.

To read more about the KC scandal, visit the following link
http://rootnode.org/article.php?sid=26


I'm the aged panther of the darkest reaches of your inner psyche.  Or something.

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WhiteTiggress

Subject : :o( June 07th 6:50pm

I started crying soooo hard when i read she was dead in the
 middle of the library with tons of
people around!!!! and thn i find out she isn't real!!!!
I totally can not believe that!!! I grew to love someone
that never really had a face all the hats and pic. How could
one person make a fool out of so many people!!! We all fell
in love with her just to get our hearts broken. I don't think i will ever recover from the whole this left in my heart :`(

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